By this time every year, my spirits have fallen and I am full of self-doubt. The year has taken a toll and my life has fluctuated all over the place like a roller coaster derailed but riding the momentum. And yet, as soon as the holidays come around I start finding hope and happiness.
Don’t get me wrong, I still complain about how I’d love to take a romantic walk through the lights and snow, or have someone to snuggle up with but jeez. I always realize that if this is the only big problem I have, I’m living a good life.
So I guess what I’m trying to say is that around holidays, I am grateful. I love my family, my friends, and myself. I do ultimately love my life, just gotta control the emotions. I also find myself missing everyone. This comes as a surprise though.
I never thought of myself as someone who needed to surround herself with people. Maybe it’s because I’ve made incredible friends I know I can rely on. Maybe I just like spending my time with people. Whatever the case, I’ve come to rely on friends and family and I miss the ones that aren’t here dearly.
I look forward to Christmas this year. I’ll appreciate home that much more even though I’m starting to make a new home here. Doesn’t matter. Snow makes me happy :D
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